Mind Your Words

I might have not called you every night to say i'm sorry, but i detests the things you say now, things like "if ever that it's true that u've loved me,that's ultimate bullshit.coz only true love forgives" and also "i regret and want forgiveness.how hard can that be?don' just say that u forgive me when u still hold grudges.u're just a fake".

I realise my efforts might have not seemed to be the uttermost to you, yet you did not take it into consideration that turning up somewhere without hesitation is actually a crazy thing to do, noting that i do not know for sure if she will be in Simei for the 'O' levels. Didn't you notice for me to initiate such a task, means i had to overcome the impediment that i'd set all round me due to the immeasurable history of my heart-wrenching memories. Didn't you notice i was slowly opening up to you day by day.

I agree my previous blog had been vague to understand as you have always misunderstood my entries but now i'm making it clear. Everything you said or meant to say to joe,especially those i quoted should really be rechecked for reliability. Yes, reliability on yourself. True love forgives? Then tell me when did you forgave me when i almost teared begging for forgiveness from you, when this left shoulder almost gave way for you, when i finally mouthed the very words that destroyed me years ago. I love you, Precious.

How hard can it be not to hold grudges?

p/s:just like the guy who tooked you away from me, you're just another fake, just like joe.

22 24

I went out with Fredo the Birthday kid. It was his birthday on the 22nd of august. Well, the actual plan was that i accompany peq to penisula to get some guitar picks. and so we did. The three of us waited for Cik Enab and Eikkz. Then we went to city link. Fredo got his wallet. Off we went to Marina Square, somebody just had to feel like eating at cavana. Ouh f.y.i, that was my bloody first time eating at cavana. The cashier girl was kinda cute. I just had to give her a note. This is what i wrote:

"Nyanyi Nampak,
Dah macam Rossa Sey,
I minat Rossa Tau,
Yang imitation pun i minat jugak,
Kalau boring-boring kall lah... (enter number here) "

I found out that Eikkz saw The 'A'. I swear that made me happy enough. I just do not know how kental i can get. Its as if i can picture her as Eikkz is describing what she was wearing, her posture and the facial expression. I remember that stupid picture message she sent me long, long ago. A picture of a marijuana leave and she said that's me. (her kind of abstract thought)
Somehow what i thought was stupid back then is now more than words could say. She is my drug. My muse.

Lets not get too emo, aye.
So the highlights are the fact i "kacip" a 23yr old minah classic and i got to know the cashier girl is indonesian after we text. The temporary high of having girls want you in their probability list is such a great feeling. Maybe i'm just addicted to that, no wonder all my get-to-knows last a mere two weeks. Afterall none of them interests me or intrigues me enough for me to stay awhile. And for those who does, they tire and die too soon for me to show them the light that will ignite passion. Someone wasted her chance to be pampered.

kacip. vt. a verb used by mat and minahs alike. get to know the opposite sex. --Anthony kacip a girl from the west coast.

Hear Ye!! Hear Ye!!

A few things i'd wished you know.

1. i like you to give me hugs and kisses too.
2. i never use hair products because i like the idea of having someone's fingers going through my hair.
4. don't act all modest and coy when i say you're pretty.
5. don't treat me like i have a nut for a brain, if you want to kiss another guy, do it in front of me, like as if i care if u did.
6. thinking you're pretty in some ways is one of the reason we're going out together, confidence is key.
7. if you really liked me for me, you wouldn't let my harsh loving go to waste instead you should reciprocate my napalm kiss. (aku adalah aku)
8. i never type all my words in lower case for my smses unless when i'm mad/sad/or any other negative feeling that i'm in.
9. NEVER call me Khairi unless you're family because you might get slapped.
10. don't make me angry because i can't let it out.
11. Kate Beckinsale is my all time favourite sweet girl.
12. just because you are a girl, doesn't make it ok not to say sorry when you're wrong.
13. you expect me to say and do sweet things for you, but it would be nice if you did the same every once in a while. i like to know that you love me.
14. i can't always be spontaneous, so try to help me make the plans sometimes.
15. never treat me like i mean something to you when all you wanna do is get back with the ex.
16. meteorite is somehow the good guy and the anchor which ties me down. i wanna get rid of him.
17. i got so many effed up issues eating me up from the inside and all i want to do is help you before i go.
18. i like skinny girls with pointy noses.
19. i find it fun to have you rip out my heart, stick it up my arse. *sarcasm sarcasm*
20. i secretly have a dream to start a fight club.

Know Me Better

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

This is what someone says about people borned in february. And alot of it really is me. Especially being the sexiest out of everyone whom isn't born in february. Basically all of it is true about me even the horny part. So now you people are going to know me better by digesting that.

Finishing each other's sentences

When you hug and hold someone you love, it is care, it is love, it is belonging. Telling each other, this is where we belong, in each others arms. Comforting, feeling of security. Warmth, and a sense of peace.
When in love, a hug can be pure happiness. A release from anything else in life that might be bothering you. Because at that moment, when you are hugging, you are where you belong and everything is right.
BUT
When you think about it, there aren't too many things better than finishing each other's sentences and finding something new in those stories you've heard 450 times already.

and here comes the pictures. (This is how i boring-kan diri)

The Family.

This is the annoying budder. Locally known as Erdin and he also goes by the name of Lord Wemphyr.

This is Adek, the truest master of yoga. He has even mastered how to turn negative energies into positive ones, etc. laughing when he is hit with a remote control on his head, brushing people off with just a look even after the people finished up his water while he is eating, basically he just laugh it off.

This is him in trance state. Synchronising his mind, body and soul with the world around him.

The famous 24/7 bummer in my house is Miemidtz. He's a kitten and kittens are supposed to be hyper-active.

One of the rare occasions when Miemidtz goes hyper.

And not forgetting the most important member of the household, Beloved Masha.

He is not really an immediate family member but he was part of Los Quattordici before his fall from the 5th storey of block 13 which soon brought him death on swift wings. In loving memory of the 14 clan's biggest cat member, I sing it La Vie En Rose. laaa lala lala la laaa lala lala la laaaaa~

The Deprives


The cutest picture Tsue ever taken on my motorola phone. How i miss the boogerbabe..

So you people may know. This is Didi Precious.

My favourite picture of us. Somehow, as i've noticed numerous times, all of my friendships with the power of 3 is better off than the twos, fours and more. It always last longer in threes.

The Superhero Gang

Buddy Maximus a.k.a Waffles from Catscratch. HD kid / meteorite. HD girl a.k.a kental.lols.

The lame fashion magazine 'things to buy' page.

Like i've said. The best part is when you're in threes. Or are you planning to take me out on an exclusive date?

ECV

Do not be fooled by his get up. He doesn't usually look like this. This was mere entertainment for the Los Quattordicci. He is the heartless doe, he'll kick you in the face just to wake you up. Nanchindian knows that on first hand account. He is also the creative creator of the "cpat2 angkat telefon, syg. Klau tk nnti aku tonjol kepale bapakkau, syg" ringtone. I will update you on his drawings of butterflies, snake and coconut tree soon.

The most obnoxious ecv kid. The face says it all.

Our very own Chris Martin. And also my "twin".

This is the little kid who calls me Uncle Johnny. Don't mind the mother cause i'm Johnny and i'm not coming home.

Ed's bike. I wish i can have it plus a little custom parts here and there and voila!

The view we see at morning smoke session.

The Sagu

My indon crush. Well, when will she be coming to Singapore again? Ipan, help me ask her to come please.

Here's an X. I'm sorry it didn't work out for us.

My clementi love affair. Its too on and off for us. Where can she be?

Jayla, my favourite american.

And for those people who has been wanting to know who goldilocks is.

Wani Bani my anak mami

She's my anak mami and i'm hers imaginary friend because she keeps seeing me 24/7. And the pretty boy is me.hahs.

Another photo of us. Me with my messy medium length hair. We inseparable so let your body decide where it wants to go.

And these cute characters are done by her for her 2d animation jobsheet.

Miscellaneous


This is my perfume set when i was 16years old. I know, i got expensive nostrils but now my $2.5o Pucelle perfume will do.

The frenzy we go into when we're deprived of something essential. This experiment costs me a 5kg pack of rice and cab fare to a place where birds is aplenty. Moral of the picture, do not waste food or any other thing be it living or dead that you think isn't really important.

Sir Luxley O'Frolick

The kid who loves Donald.


Look at what all that lovin' has done for him. He turns out to be a very sexy young man.lols.

The Squire a.k.a Luxley and The Dotsta. Ignore the girls, they're insignificant to the picture.

Another offering of Sir Luxley. Look at how hot all that donald loving made him.

This Happened Yesterday

Out of a thousand other people i could have dreamt of, my mine chose you, Didi Precious. We were somehow visiting "i dunno who" somewhere and coincidentally the somebody lives in the same block. As if fated, we had to take the lift to the same floor yet neither smiles nor words were exchanged. But the twist was when you appear at the door and asked if i would want to send you downstairs before you go. (Certainly i said yes regardless of what you did) We went through awkward silence in the lift but i knew what i had to do and to execute it with cockiness. I said "Can i have your number now or do you still want to fight this guerilla war?".

It became more strange when i woke up and went to school. There was this girl who looked 98% exactly like you in the 72 bus from upper serangoon. I couldn't help it but gave the girl numerous weird stares that the girl got uncomfortable in her seat until the information gets too big and caused me a light headache. I was somehow confused if she was really Didi Precious and i found myself hoping the girl alight at the same bus stop so i could chat her up to confirm but she didn't. So i guess it wasn't you though i swear she was Didi Precious if she didn't wear specs.
Another thing to ponder about. *sigh*

p/s:Is this a sign?

Lets Study Law

OH MY GOD!
I'VE FOUND THIS TOTALLY INTERESTING BLOG
WHICH BELONGS TO SOME INTELLECTUAL SINGAPOREAN MALAY.
CHECK THIS PARTICULAR ENTRY OUT: Law Of Relativity With A Twist (oh darn it you, eejit! Click on the words in blue.)

Your Loving Arms

Sometimes the way you act
Makes me wonder wat i am to you
Sometimes i wonder why
I'm acting to be part of you.

And when i dream of the fear
Of you leaving.
Do i love it? heh.
So many times have i asked you to tell me
That i'm your one.
Time after time
I need to find a reason just to get inside ur world.
So many time have i asked you to tell me
How is it to love?

When u hmmm.
Put your loving arms around me
And whisper to me.
Put your loving arms around me
And inside your arms i'm burning
I'm burning
Inside your arms i'm burning.

The New Basketeers' Pet

I've grown rather fond with the 'cencurut' at ecv's basket. It comes out around 12plus in the morning rummaging for food in the leftovers littered all over the 'pondok basket. Sometimes i leave some crackers at the entrance of its crib. I find the cencurut cute in the way it hops on its hind legs while carrying a big piece of food in its mouth, the way it goes inside a myojo instant noodle bowl and licks and find whatever food it can digest. These are little things people don't see which i admire. The life of this small little rodent is insignificant to our daily laughter and crap talk sessions. Therefore i will keep note of it.

p/s: everyone is just another little rodent, its the soulmates that makes us mickey mouse.

endless battle

I 'paitau-ed' my sidekick a few days back. I was supposed to accompany HD girl to her cosmetic thingy at forum in the morning. I was eager enough to even asks her to wake me up at 9.45am but when she woke me up i couldn't help it that i lied and went back to my precious sleep. (I guess meteorite was showing.hah. sorry babe.) Then sidekick messaged me again later on informing me that she's leaving her house already and guess what? I lied(told her i was getting ready and that she just have to go ahead and i'll meet her afterwards.) and went to sleep once more.

All this while i was fighting the endless battle within. The battle i've always fought ever since mom stop waking me up like she used to, ever since i shattered her dreams of not staying in my secondary school years to continue taking my o's instead i left and went to ITE. All that 210 PSLE aggregate was wasted. All that years in the express stream wasted. All that hopes shattered into a million bite-size chunks of bittergourd. We went through alot more messages yet my meteorite side was showing and i chose slumber over her.

Later that day it dawned on me that i did something horrible to my sidekick and sooner than you know, my fingers were dialling her numbers. My fingers when into a repetitive trance-like state, dialling her 8digits. After numerous attempts, she picks up. We chatted. Then I had to go out and make my way to a place where kids like you shouldn't know. But if you people really want to know click here: HD girl's blog.
And look for the "erit is a jerk" entry.

p/s: i had to give up the ayu look-alike just to spend extra minutes with somebody special.

kenders hate changes

Things change, that's the way it is. I don't really mind it if the ex is trying his best to win your heart once again but what about the usual morning fix of "hey pakcik, wakey wakey". Does it have to stop now? Will the lifting voice i hear almost every morning cease to speak? Just because X wants you back.

I still remember the time you cried, how i wipe your tears and how i held you in my arms. From that moment on, I feel it was my responsibility to make you happy, keep you safe from harm. I knew you are fragile eversince, just like me too. And all i ask of you now is that you return a favour and give me a fair chance to prove my worth. Afterall wasn't it me, who was always there for you?

p/s: she gave me false feelings and 2 kisses.