speed of mind

my mind works in ways i do not understand, not to mention that it thinks subconciously and at great speed. just like when i alighted at city hall to change platform. i was leaning against the wall, waiting for my train to arrive. suddenly all of these random thoughts pops up. triggered by this skinhead girl. she used to be one of the skinbyrds that i secretly adore. (not to get out of topic and start singing skinhead love affair i'll stop mentioning abt her)
then the girl next to me talking to her guy or whosoever had the voice of feeqah. she even speaks in the same manner as feeqah. then all the possibly unnecessary thoughts start jumbling my mind. ayu.. didi.. precious.. mini-projects.. jobsheets.. 999..or shall i say umbedel-umbedel-umbedel?

Portfolio Accomplished

Sixteen of my personal artworks are inside. Only three to five out of all that are actually to my satisfaction. Other than that, all the other works, i consider amateur. Totally lacking indulgence and focus. To me an artpiece is like a sexual partner. You must not leave out the little details. You make love to every bit of it. "From little things, great wonders are born..."

That 17year Old From Changkat

She Just Mothered a Bastard Son.

Mobile Mode Aborted

Due to the excessive nightlife we've been having. It has come to her concern that Topeq needs to cut down on the clubbing experience. For if he does not, she fears he will ruin his own future. (while i'm ruining mine)
i find all this very true and undeniably Topeq must start looking for a job while waiting for the tono vacancy which will only be vacant this coming april. (and i doubt there will even be a vacancy) which explains why he must look for other jobs as it wouldn't be wise at all to just depend on a man's word. So yes i, him, we must cut down on this nightlife!

Not Emo Enough For You?

Well, since when does the last letter of my id no is F? uhh..nvm. Not to steer away from topic, i somehow think its true that i'm starting to be emo about friendships nowadays. Especially since one or two weeks ago. To tell you(whoever that reads this simple blogspot) frankly, i've impeccably realise that love is a lot of bull for us youngsters who still wants to follow suit to what ever that is happening today. So i've decided to give love a pass eversince but there is one whom is dormant in this fragile heart of mine. Which i am subconciously hoping to hold in my arms(vice-versa) but like i've mentioned earlier, i'd given such a complicated theory a pass. And i, most probably, will be giving friendship the cold shoulder too as i've find it to be so much similar to love. Especially the heart wrenching moments i have to live through. Soon I will be impassive to my torturous social life and claimed the title that befits me most, yes, i am Eri Rotten.

Magic School Bus

i love my number 59.
i love the 15mins time it takes me to get to toa payoh.
thank you sbs, for your very wonderful service
and bringing me and peq together again.
i heart you singapore bus service.
well at least for now.

Nowhere

the title says it all actually. i'm nowhere in life right now. and i don't even think i got a life. (k,i did..but not anymore) i got no motivation or what some of you might call the drive to pursue a dream. i don't really know what to do actually. (i know actually, what i meant is i don't know where to start) life is too pointless to live through. Can't i just sit one corner and sulk? cause i effing hate growing up. the need to earn your own allowance, the need to do things the so-called "right" way. i don't like being mature and i don't like understanding a lot of stuffs that never used to matter either. my life is a mess. (what's worst? i got no friend) yeah, i typed friend. the true meaning of it. translated into malay; sahabat. not kawan. you don't get me, i bet. "sahabat" and "kawan" are two different things. And once you start to mature like i do, you'll understand and realise all the crappy shits, "kawan" makes us do. right now i need to get ready for work. and i bledy hell need a driving force.

Great Riffs

Bledy Heels People Of "Whatever Superhero-Sounding City Should Sound Like". I have fallen in love just very recently about a few minutes ago.. deeply, deeply in love with Nightmare Of You, The Great Spy Experiment, White Rose Movement and We Are Scientist. (all of which are very nice bands) . But Not To Worry I Still Love You So Very Much, The Doors And Oasis..

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first times

well.
there is a few stuffs happening for the first times this past few days.
like fardy bublè saying minah phrases like: "asal? u nak buatpe dekat i? i tk heran ahh.!" (pulling it off with extreme minah-ish gusto) or at least i imagine it so. then there was the bus ride with fardy bublè. which is my first bus ride with her.ever. cuz we had always took the train to anywhere we want to be at and that first bus ride together was really a pleasant one. then a day before adek was accusing me of something and messaging me things like e.g "i wasn't spoon-fed yesterday, come on u sly devil, you.. come on let it out!" and later at night he said something so very arrogant to erdin when erdin said he can beat adek. and trust me my adek comes up with super arrogant things to say on a daily basis. (ouh which means it is not the first time he said something arrogant) ouh and actually, i got a lot more thing to write in this entry but right now my brain functions seems to be going at 32% of its normal rate. so i have to end this entry real soon. (must be the un-delicious chicken briyani i had in school just now.) and that will be another story for another time. goodbye good ppl of the world.