dede, nk kluar?

Like i said before so Sir Magnus and Scarlett won't know you are a sick little stalker girl righttttttt.....? ? esel.. I'm totally bored right now. I was made to watch Power Rangers Ninja Storm. He was trying to get front page on magazine by pulling off a frontside 540. He was being taken over by fame of the superhero thingy. They went to visit Grandma at some remote place. And how can a guinea pig be a ninja master? lols. its amusing ok. to a boring person, at least.
Now i'm watching The Oprah Show while doing this entry. for god's sake. how low can a superzero go?

People i miss:
-HD girl.
-goldilocks.
-Nurri.
-mojo jojo.
-THE "A" (where'd u go? i miss u so.)

People i wanna see:
-refer above.

And where the effing goose have all the nightwatchers went? i keep on going to the hut and to my demise, nobody is around. I don't like it when i have too much time on my hands. Its gives me the opportunities to think about stuffs, about being 15yrs old, about playing truant just so i can be with her, about times i had to wrestle with her to get her to tie my laces. "A" is certainly the greatest but i hate the way i can't hate you enough to forget you. I hate the way you call me Dede because i like it so much. I need my job back so i can distract my attention from you. so i won't have to trouble myself with the truth. We are all breaking up. There's no more Quattordicci. It all started when the govt(it must be the govt) decided to take away the 14 roundtable. I had so much memories there. The Boys, "A" and everything else about the whole lot of us. about the whole lot of our memories. How i wish you will message me out of the blue and tell me you wanna see me? And how you wouldn't even mind it if you had to come down to my territory to see me. Like you did before. Like last times? pls. Do your wonders.

p/s: this is my territory.

Hopes And Screams

There goes my hopes and dreams of owning a lacoste porterbag, lacoste belt, vans rowley slim shoes, an enjoi deck, grind king trucks, ol skool wheels, speed demon or fkd bearings, donating $50 to the mosque and getting myself a few new inks done. ouh and hair treatment. lols. yar i know. but i was really planning to pamper my hair since its rather dry nowadays. Unfortunately, i was "noisy" at the office so joe sumthing decided to stop scheduling me. He's such a sore loser because i couldn't possibly be noisy. I'll tell you why. :

1) i do not have any friends working there except for Syaz. (who works a different shift)
2) i even go for my 1hour breaks alone which means i do not have friends there.
3) i will never get to see the Shift Leader anymore. ish.

So now i'm a jobless workaholic. heh. contradicting huh? yeah... i need to be scheduled. i emphasize NEED. Like where the effing f_ck will i get the cash for my expensive lifestyle.hah.And joe is such a coward for not telling me straight in my face when he spoke to me the other time, instead he just wanted me not be scheduled and expect me to call and ask 'why am i not getting scheduled?' loser lar he. no kontol to speak to me. so much for employees' welfare and the pantry.need to stop now. Gonna play Majesty now. Ciao~

p/s: where is the love?

Paint Brush

I keep my paint brush with me, wherever I may go
In case i need to cover up, so the real me doesn't show
I'm so afraid to show you me
Afraid of what u'll do-
that you might laugh or say mean things,
I'm afraid i might lose you..
I like to remove all my paint coats to show you the REAL TRUE ME
But i want you to try and understand.. i need you to accept what you see
So if you'll be patient and close your eyes..
I'll strip off all of my coats real slow..
Please understand how much it hurts..to let the real me show.
Now my coats are all stripped off,
I feel naked,bare and cold
And if you still ♥ me with all that you see
you're my friend pure as gold
I need to save my paint brush though.. and hold it in my hand
I want to keep it handy, in case somebody doesn't understand
So please protect me, my dear friend
and thanks for loving me true.
But please let me keep my paint brush with me..
Until I LOVE ME, too.

this is dedicated to the wonderful people i trust, love, care and so on. And i call them friends. (whatever that's supposed to mean) Especially to Sir Magnus of Crosshair. Buddy Scarlett And Ika Alexis. To my one and only sidekick along with her own sidekick, Buddy Maximus. My lovely homie, Eikkz. All former boys of Quattordicci;Tenok, MiziTager, MelTokyo, Zak and Debol. And not forgetting The Dotsta, Tua Bak, 9-inch and Acab. and anybody else that might have missed my thought.

Desire To Breathe

So i got the job at Sitel and it pays very well for talking. But the trainings sucks big time. hmm. not because i wasnt able to do the job but due to the fact that i had a major tummy ache the whole day. super major cramps..like effing fuct tarts man. and it even followed me through until the second day of training. and to make it all worse, HD girl is going away to phuket to enjoy with her family and i'm afflicted with runny nose, cough, flu and fever. i'm like totally sick. Adek even said i was having the worldcup fever. total lame-ness.

and Zeus, why do you have to be evasive in person? Why do you have stalker-like attributes?Why do you take up all the space i have? Why do you message me all too often? Don't you have a life or something to occupy your time? The other time i had a girl like you(not that you're my girl) i freaked out okay. You are such an insecure clingy moronic lady. Why do you have to be all dog-like and sniff after your master? Why do you have to be 2different person? Why do you suck up to me in msgs and then act all independent in person? So Magnus and Scarlett won't know you are a sick little stalker girl righttttttt............lastly pls LET ME BREATHE!

My Bus Wonder

Tap My EzLink
Step On The Bus
I Saw Pretty You
My Heart Went Faster

You Glanced At Me And Smile At Me
But I Was Too Shy To Move
And I Won't Go With No Number
Cause I Want To Make Friends

My Bus Wonder, My Bus Wonder
Ride On Yonder With You
In The Bus In A Happy State
And I Dont Know What To Say
Cause All I'll Only Say Is Hey

Yes, She Smile Through Me
As I Sit By Her
She Could See That I Want Her Number
In My Phone
And I Don't Think That She'll Exchange It With Me,
But We Had a Pleasant Chat That'll Stay With Me.

My Bus Wonder, My Bus Wonder
Ride On Yonder With You
In The Bus In A Happy State
And I Dont Know What To Say
Cause All I Can Say Is Hey

Big Bear

It seems that my eldest kindred is in a jolly good mood today. You wanna know how i know?
Simple.
1) He passes me matches from foreign lands. (in case you people didn't know; i collect matches)

2) He talks to me about bikes, jackets and any other things that is associated to bikes or soccer. (trust me when i say i don't like the idea of 22people chasing after a ball.)

3) HD kid: "Abg Ejam ada rokok sebatang?"
Abg Ejam:" Nah! Ambik." (and he throws me a new pack of cigarettes)

How much more good can his mood gets? I do not know but what I do know is that it's pretty cool to get an unopen pack of Marlboro Fags when all you asked for is just one stick. I've got to go and enjoy a stick now. tata~

Mighty Cute

Me and Goldilocks. We look mighty cute together but apparently the person who told me that didn't know she looks mighty cute too in the oh-so-modette dress and shoes. One point to be noted though is that she has to cut down on the face powder. Honestly i tell you, she looks weird with the 'bedak' on her face. And wouldn't it be nice if what she suspected of me and Goldie is true? Yes it would. I sooo dig fairytales. Ariel the Little Mermaid especially. err. am i starting to confuse disney with my fairytales now? lol.... but one thing for sure, the one-day-stand modette looks rather yumyum. Or shall i address the person as HD girl?

Silly Dances Turn Me On

Woke up this morning to find you not in bed. Where'd you go? Show up please. My morning daily dosage of sweet licks. Wish you were my daily affair, sugah. Wish ... you were here.
I reminisce as the rush comes in, as the moment stops and when the thumping beats didn't matter to us anymore as she graced me a smile. It was brief and it lasted seconds but for me that is bliss enough. Then everything got back to the way it was. In the club, the rays of light illuminates. Drawn to her dance. Basked in her radiance. She's nice, cute and ordinary. Not just that, she wears 3/4skirt too. Tell me you're singular, not attached. Not till 23. Because i want to spin you, like a regular Dj. Loved the way you melted me with a subtle silly dance, hated the way you had to make your rounds.

A popular honey, humbling me with just a stare. I want her. 2nd June '06. . . bring out the sweetness in you. I want you in my cup of coffee for your sweet taste.

I Want You To Notice

I went to M.O.S on the 28th may. With Magnus, Scarlett and Zeus. And guess what?? While i was there, i never thought i would be noticed by the ladies. I had goldilocks touch me. Nurri coming up to me and hug me and hold me. Ja'square flirt with me. Irah getting all excited just by seeing me. And one individual even got jealous. Hmm. well, what can i say when you're naturally beautiful?

p/s: Pass me the ketchup.

Roaches And Pests

Why does people have to be pests? like roaches and so. Why do they have to cross your line even when you don't touch theirs. Are they simply brainless or perhaps low in iq? Hmm, probably yes for the people i'm talking about. Clearly i play no part so why the effing f_ck do you have to pull me in it?

p/s: i hate water bombs.

Moondust

she gets really drunk
like a little girl
on whiskey
she whispers in my ears
lovely words i want to hear
so go on and on...

be mine, my fairy
sprinkle me moondust
when i sleep

she kisses my cheeks
then kisses my lips
make me shy just like a kid
getting high
on drugs and compliments
so give me motion
distortion on and on..