For Nothing

Will you show me the light
at the end of the tunnel,
Will you actually hold
me close for forever,
All of what we do
It's just some sort of fable.

You would rather put me
on a chopping board.
Dice me, Slice Me.

I'll fetch you off from work,
massage your back if it hurts,
I'll buy you a thousand happy gifts
and do whatever else you please,,
All of that I'll do
I'll call fable.
A fancy dreamscape
where we roam.

But you would rather put me
on a chopping board.
Dice me, Slice Me.
Just leave me to crack for nothing.
you would rather put me
on a chopping board.
Dice me, Slice Me.
Just leave me out for nothing.
Almost nothing.

p/s:i've got no idea why i'm letting shit to happen.

Feel it now

Fall in love with me…
Because I need it…

A girl once did…
But her love went away.
She broke my heart…

Fall in love with me,
And ill be ok.

Fall in love with me..
Because I need it.
_____________________

i'm feeling like i have this feeling that when i feel, it feels like i'm missing something. Something important, essential and elusive. I've once discussed this with someone and she said that something acts like a witness to your bland pathetic life.(ok, she actually said witness only, i made the rest up.)

Somehow i've given it a few thoughts and the most basic conclusion is that we all want to have a certain someone to share our live with.

To read in between that line: I've been living here in Eunos for almost 20years, i guess, i don't know, really. There's alot of memories here, the playgrounds that gave me a permanent scar under the chin, the primary school i went to, the numerous fights i got into, the traffic light i got lost at when my brother got his pink mountainbike, my parent's room that seemed soo huge when i was a toddler and the cheap teenage era i've been through. I can really go on about my beloved ECV but i want to share that with the missing individual, she's somewhere out there, i shall not loose hope and i shall reserve my full life story for her. Life isn't really a blast when you're not sharing it with someone.

p/s: my everchanging feels.

Back To Basic

Blasted barnacles! I just had to face some complications with my cellphone. Presently, the LCD fails to display anything eventhough the phone is switched on and the phone will also automatically restart when i'm listening to my music on it.

I've realised the complexity of the matter when i was about to answer a call and suddenly, as i look at my phone's screen, there was just a faint grayish light. I immediately and literally pressed everything on the phone. (like knn. wtf.) As Black Bear would say "Lan Lan, Bo Ti Kai".(whatever that means??)

Right Now All I Can Do With The Phone Is:

a)Listen to my music by guessing where the music player is.
b)Not, i repeat, NOT read my messages. Which by now is accumalative to 9messages as according to how many times the message tone beeps.
c)Receive phone calls.
d)Make phone calls to whoever's number i can remember and dial without knowing if i'm keying in the right numerics.

BUT

now i've already sent my phone in to nokia care centre to get it's software ugraded so it can cope with the tech' of the phone. So i'll probably be able to contact people and be contacted by the 13th november of 2006. For those people who know my home number, anything beep me there. For now life will be sooooo
i ♥ her too.

p/s: electronic sounds serenaides me.

You're So Lucky

I'm so very not happy. If you have been reading my blog, you will be able to recall the story of the arses that outnumbered me and my friends 20 to 8.

Well, this is a story of the particular eejit who said "gua tak lari punya la"(mustering every mat accent into it). Me and the Los Quattordicci have been contemplating every torturous thing we could think of for the 3rd of november where my intelligent mind told me that he will be there that night.(credits to me) I've been dreaming of throwing him down on the road and rubbing his face agaisnt the tar. Then i'll make him spread his fingers on the road and step on it and twist like the bad guys in movies who's stubbing out a cigarette except that i'll do it with all my might. So he will not have a future to look forward to.

On the night of 3rd november like i've had planned with the boys. We'll hit them hard and to live with honour we decided to propose a massive one on one where we will face one each but the bloke wasn't there with his boys so we delayed the attack. Soon the impatience of the boys were growing with each tick of the clock. Most of us wants it to happen now.(that includes me.hahs.) The lust for a fight. I guess i'm actually a fight addict somehow. With the boys actually playing this warring thing here in ecv now. We are sooo kiddy with big fat imaginations.

Lets get back on track, so we were impatiently waiting and word is not to make it happen just yet. Later on, we went out and planned to wait with torture on my mind. We waited for him to come out.(i feel soo mat) And when he did, he rushed into a cab. One of my own tried to open the taxi's door but he locked it. I was truly shattered, felt like i could shout across the globe.

Runaway coward with your dick in between your legs. I'll get you no matter what, this i promise you.

love,
joji boy

p/s: if you love me, don't be polite.

Should I?

You are boring me. So much for your bla bla bla.

-I dislike it when you keep quiet when i say something serious or meaningful.
-I dislike it when you do not reply to my text msgs but expect me to reply to yours.
-I dislike it when i cannot hang up even when i got none left to say. (do i need to go somewhere or do something to actually say bye?)
-I dislike it when everything i say is misunderstood because you have a poor grasp of english.
-I dislike it when you suddenly keep quiet after i sms you things like 'i want you to let it out'.(like that meants you have to reply, don't you understand?)
-I dislike it when you say things like alik, patne, sal and all the other baby words.(but this i can tolerate)
-I dislike it when you assume i'm angry.(like i am incapable of getting angry, very contradicting aye)
-I dislike it when you say 'i love you'.(like what the eff that means?)
-I dislike it more when you cannot support those 3words.
-I dislike someone who cannot express love in other ways. e.g actions/gestures.(and cash is not love)
-I dislike it when you have something to say but you keep it to yourself instead.
-I dislike it when you keep telling me your life is arrange by others and yet you are not willing to do anything about it.
-I dislike it when you make plans with me and then ask me again when the time comes.(like as if, you got some other last minute thingy and fyi i get the crappiest feeling when you ask again like if you don't want to meet up, you can bloody hell say so.)
-I dislike someone who does not have a backbone for herself.
-I dislike someone whom i can rule over easily.(no chelen la)

I've got so many dislike/'pantang larang' which i tell you, i can go on and on to not like more things day after days. It is like an unending list of dislikeable traits. So i really hope at this very moment that what old people say about couples who always fight are meant to be together is 100% true because if it is not then what i'm doing now is a bollocking waste of unnecessary time.

p/s: should i tell her all my dislike? Just to be honest? Because i'm not the type to keep mum.