Don't you wanna be relevant?

Kinks said: It isn't appropriate behavior for you to fear rejection. If you get the opportunity to tell someone you like her, you should. Dia suka or tak suka belakang cerita because you'll never know when the person will be gone. Just tell her how much you feel for her. You'll never know if you'll get a good response but she might be thinking or waiting for you to tell her that. You need to overcome it & build confidence. Jangan kerna satu silap, you give up. Definitely, you'll go through all the wrong characters in life. This is so because when the right one comes ambling along, you will be able to appreciate her. Sometimes i wish you will open up because you shouldn't allow your past to stop you from acquiring your happiness. At first, i thought you're mysterious but later on i've found out you're just unpredictable because you're pretty much honest with someone you're close with.

Kinks also said: You're a softie at heart even though in person you are very blunt with your words. But you only seem harsh because you don't like lying and saying things people want to hear. Hence, you choose to say things that they either need to hear or opinions that are purely yours because it makes you feel good to be honest. However, this often leave people assuming you don't like girls as you do not treat them any more special than how you treat a bloke. Or they are probably thinking you're a meanie because of your past experiences.

P/s: Being there when the last breath leaves is what i intend to do.

Pure Racine

The Internet is how our city began. We didn't just keep it safe as heroes but we infect it with our HD vibes because we cool that way, yo! It's liebe hass. Not one without the other, right? So yeah, we can make it work only if we want to. It wouldn't be hard because the Internet was our initial playground.

But i have to be discreet here. Since there are others in my airspace. You'll be hearing more from me soon.

everlong,
Jimmy

Mr Lucky Charm

The week has been an eventful one. Probably because i've got my lucky charm back with me though not physically just yet but the colours seem to be brighter now.

So I've caught 500 Days With Summer twice. With those people who matter. And D u should catch it too. It is gooooood~

And i went to sentosa on the weekend with eikkz+weyz & bobo+effang. I was singular &, somehow, i felt like i was their adopted son. I also won the mini biathlon competition against Mr Physical Training Instructor. I feel so(100000000x) superhuman. Will update with pichas but no promises.

And something tried to blow up my whole happy week by asking questions she could never understand but then again, i am pretty much glad she made contact because i feel a lot lighter letting her know i'm this jerk because of her. She took away my ability to trust. So yea, she did get an earful from me. Hah.

Ouh, lastly diego did look for her dewa to share the things we used to share.

P/s: Dewa is a happy boy in eunos.

Snow Brigade

.. played like 3 times while my player was on random. So jyeah! Here's acknowledgement, Mew. And just to sidetrack, i didn't know why would anyone use the random mode until i met sidekick. She taught me things. Miniscule things and also those that aren't. Cher cher, i miss your lessons. hah.

enable to bring out the something
you want to know beneath the snow
in winter you're an affiction
that repeatedly defeated me because
i'll find you somewhere
show you how much i care
know that there is no escape
from my snow brigade
bring out the someone
you want to see for jealousy
we all know one day you'll leave behind
your everything
and feel the spring come
i'll find you somewhere
show you how much i care
know that there is no escape
from my snow brigade
my arms retreat
i wish they were there to hold you
i'll find you somewhere
show you how much i care
know that there is no escape
from my snow brigade

Likes this moment of the day:
aku kasar-kasar panggil dia, "Oi!"
dia jawab, "yea syg?"
with add-on giggles from her, somemore.

All My Little Plans & Schemes

One moment you're this, the next moment you're that. Another moment we click & connect then another moment we friction everything. I simply love being this way.

On a random note, I am always slightly turned on when a girl listens to my kind of music. Uber-turned on, to the extend of being tingly-tingly all over my body when she likes the the songs i listen to. And apparently, my brain is too slow for me. That's what someone claimed. (there you go i wrote something about you. happy? oh, you would like me to turn you into literature? some other time perhaps?)

My heart kept thumping.
So I couldn't fall asleep at night.

Disclaimer: The purple paragraph is a re-posting from surrasurra's blog. It says what i feel, therefore, I'm spreading the love. Because such bittersweet things deserves a mention on my blog. Err, by the way, sorry if i made a few adjustments to it. =)

Lasting Impressions

I was up to a slow start today. However, it turned out to be undoubtedly awesome but dang! There ain't any pictures to capture the moment. So yea, with all hopes flying high, please capture it in your heart because that's where the special things are.

"It's something unpredictable
but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life."

                                     Time of your life - Green Day

And i asked myself in all fullness, "What would Eikkz do?". Like a gazillion time beneath the city lights tonight.

Soundtrack You Baby

I was taken out of the present, psychologically, and brought into the future during one of my train rides. It was rather surreal to see myself from a 1st-person view while my body wasn't responding, especially when green eyes was playing on my beat. Then there was you standing in front of me and the song played on. And i just looked at you because i wanted to drink in that moment.

Honey you are a rock upon which I stand and I come here to talk. I hope you understand. The green eyes, yeah, the spotlight shines upon you and how could anybody deny you.

Mee Party

This is not food, it is a remake of Faris's party at the spit poet's den.

Stuck In Reverse

It might be to prove that i can make exceptions on certain occasions and it also might just be another excuse to prolong my time with you? Is there a need for the cause to be stated to justify the act? After all, actions speak louder than words, don't they?

On another note, C Martin wrote the song 'Fix You' for his wife, Gwyneth Paltrow because she was facing a hard time at a certain moment in her life due to losing something she can't replace. To sum the whole song up this is what I've got to say:

"It is for those moments when you feel like giving up. But at the same time, you dearly hope for someone or something to save you from giving up totally."

P/s::Is this what our heart seek?

A Room And A Bit More Time, Please

I'm only like 20% done with the portrait and it's already been ages since she asked me to help out. huahua. I really need my own space and a certain mystical stretch of my evenings so i'll have more night than day itself for the only time i'll hold my pencil is in the evening, also taking into consideration that i'll stop by midnight. I really need to go home earlier or m.i.a. Or something along those lines because it's really hard to stay awake and focus on the finer details after 12am.

And look! I'm already wasting time just posting this. I could have spend the time drawing. -__-"

My Starving Mind

With you around, i needed no girlfriend or a bright girl's company. Even when i had the flavours of the months, they soon bored me. Their lack of or the total absence of a great mind proved to be their own undoing in the presence of a bbr&r poet. Not one can even satisfy my need for an abstract/intellectual company. At least when you were around, they are a bit fun because i've got a partner in crime sidekick to combat their kental-ness with. And it's killing me that they're in season now and you're not around anymore.

P/s: I hope you have found your heaven with Him.

I Want My Life Back

I've got seven faces and i don't know which one to wear. If only it made more sense why because it is suddenly starting to abrade my then-blissful ignorance especially pertaining to my lycan situation. If i could clean off this thick make-up and let them see the monster underneath. The monster i once was still am. I swear could just break someone's fingers using my steeltoes. or break someone's leg on the curb. Anything to calm the beast. Please.
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Things I Think I Miss:
1- talking with one of the intellectuals like old times.
2- raya in full strength with the juvenile antics.
3- pixie's secretarial level of care & concern.
4- that ♥ you left for me to fill up my hands with. it used to suffice

5- FIQ FIQ FIQ! My Mighty Magnus! My Other Half!
6- and the times we ruled the world.

Second-Hand Experience

If you don't text, they assume you're not interested. Or even worse, they accuse you for not being there for them. When you do text but not too often, they say you've got someone else in mind and they're only second choice. Or even worse, they say you treat them like some kind of toy you play with only when you're bored. But when you text them daily or show care & concern towards their general well-being, they say you're obsessive or an arduous character to content with. Or even worse, they label you as a desperate & irksome little boy.

These are the kind of experiences that make me think too much on whether i should pursue my interests. Be it my personal experiences or anyone else's. The very same thing that makes choosing being singular over "blissfully" attached much more appealing.

On a side note, eikkz's words are most probably going to ring true regarding the rendezvous time.

Fuzzytronic Tummyache

Thanks be to my love, God. I didn't forget to extend my membership. Just merely forgot to remember i already did. Expiry's 20th February 2010 now. And i must not waste any more time here. I need to be @ the platform by 2000hrs.

But the myth states if he's not late, he's not eri-san.

P/s: Will i move the pieces?

Procrastinating Artist

I've just freshen up and i'm going to finally start working on the fine potrait for goldieloks. I have been pushing it to tomorrows after tomorrows. Now, i really need to start doing it for the guestbook has already been decided upon and design works have already began on her side. The marriage event is only like 2 weeks away and their side has already rushed the preparations. Yet i am still not holding my pencil. I shall double my pace.

However, interruptions are ever present.

And how i will come to bury my love around you.