Bonnie and Clyde

Life has been sweet even though i've been very worn out. A short rendevouz with dadit. I believe her birthday is going to last not just for one day but more days to come. She's a sweet intellectual young(but not so young) girl that deserves it.

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Holding Secretary in my arms(me in hers), just watching the tube is magical enough. I shall spare you people the finer details. hees. The first and most moving thing she ever said is "Kalaulah kiter kenal empat tahun yang lalu, mungkin kiter dah tinggal samer2". I always get myself in weird and unlikely positions where i doubt anyone else would want to be in but then it's bbr&r for me. So i gotta stay true to the life, sleeping with somebody's wife.

I got you, didn't i? she ain't married yet larhs. hahs...

Passive Activists Unite

let's all fight online child abuse by lighting a million candles together.
go to Light a Candle

Blue Replies

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't?, orSaying nothing and wishing you had?
I guess the most important things are the hardest things to say.Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them. (yes, very true. the hardest button to button.)


If you do, they might break your heart...if you don't, you might break theirs.
Have u ever decided not 2 become a couple because you were so afraid of losing what you already had with that person? (yes, i had to be wise and choose the safer path but look whr it brought me. we don't even talk anymore.)

Your heart decides whom it likes and whom it doesn't.You can't tell your heart what to do. It does it on its own........when you least suspect it, or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone with everything you had, but that other person was too afraid to let you? (yes, she doubted the depth of the chemistry i had with her. She had underestimated my capabalities to love. I am highly idealistic and i believe real love will never end no matter what knocks on its door. I hate individuals who underestimates me.)

Too many of us stay walled up because we are too afraid to care too much...for fear that the other person does not care as much, or even at all.
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle? (once too many, i am a 100% insecure freak. I always stop myself from loving that i've let down a couple diamonds along the way. I always have this feeling that things won't ever stay the way it is cause its never meant to be, be it love, friends or materialistic possesions. I have lost faith in the goodwill of others as i've not seen it since '98.)


We tell lies when we are afraid... afraid of what we don't know, afraid of what others will think, afraid of what will be found out about us.
But every time we tell a lie, the thing we fear grows stronger.

Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump.Don't be a person who has to look back and wonder what they would have done, or could have had.
*What would you do if every time you fell in love you had to say good-bye?
(i've grown rather accustomed to this.)
*What would you do if every time you wanted someone they would never be there?
(build a wall, construct my own defence and lock myself inside, starving for love, a lady's touch, little kisses and meaningful meaningless smses. I writhe in agony at the emptiness, at the numerous things i could do for a non-existing someone. have i no partner? have i not a soul to unleash such unamountable energies of devotion to? will there ever be a witness to my wonders? such a correct term to be coined by fadit; 'witness', ahh perfect.)
*What would you do if your best friend died tomorrow and you never got to tell them how you felt?
(i would have resented myself. Peq and Eikkz, i love you)
*What would you do if you loved someone more than ever and you couldn't have them?
(suffer in silence. code of bushido)
*What would you do if you never got the chance to say I am friends with all of my family and they know I love them?
*People live, but people die. I want to tell you that you are a friend.If you died tomorrow you would bein my heart.Would I be in yours?
(yes, fadit. yes.)

What's In The Mail Today?

Bollocks to the government, the school and any other authority corporation. Great news friends, I'm bloody enlisted to 5SIR and expected to report on 6 October '06. For those uninitiated morons that means i'm being call for the "compulsory" service as an infanteer. Isn't that the greatest thing for a student who's completing 6 more months of school to obtain a certificate? *sarcasm sarcasm* (bright future aye?)

Ouh and bollocks to Mrs Goh, in-charge of ez-link bla bla bla. What a bitch? She dared gave me such reply like why you want to extend ezlink? how come need to extend? You are already student, how come pay adult fare? (Notice the perfect grammar?) ouh and did i mention hw she said SHHH WAIT. BUSY. just because she's photocopying something, ouh it must have been a perilous task. I guess it wasn't any wonder why she could not process "Excuse me, Mrs Goh, I need to extend my student ezlink validity because i'm being retained for 6more mths."
The person in-charge of ezlink bla bla bla before was much more suitable for the position. Mrs Goh totally lacks the calibre needed for an admin kinda person, she even had to ask ITE HQ just to approve my ezlink which as according to her will be on monday. The person before her could have done it in that instant because such things don't need the consent from the HQ. Get what i meant by she lacks calibre. Bird-brained admin with irish temper.

I've got so much negative energy inside of me. I need someone to waste.

So I had to take it into my capable hands. I had to take actions about the deferment without the school's help eventhough they said they'll do it when i signed the readmittance letter. I asked the clerk to typed me a letter as proof tt i'm schooling and to endorse it. With that letter ready, i asked my eldest brother to send me to CMPB. Once i reached there i registered myself and retrieved a queue number. It didn't took me long to be called. I explained my situation and got myself defered in an instant. My charm and politeness must have done a miracle because usually you'll have to wait for a letter to be posted to your place which have a 50/50 chance of rejection and approval. Another brief encounter with the national service. I will no longer get to run once the tentacles get me.....

One Hit Wonder

Tonight's the night i get in some shit.

It wasn't honourable at all to surround us with 20people the last time even when they know they're only facing 8 of us. (the bloody cowards they are) I shouldn't have given them respect and honour of a true fight. I could have snap my boys and rush him through the time he was alone but noooo... I thought that he deserved a fair fight. a fight with only fists. They have shown us cowardice and cowardice shall be rewarded with no mercy. Cowardice with the belt. Cowardice with the bin. Cowardice for only daring to attack us when we are outnumbered 2:1. Cowardice to attack a drunken bunch. Cowardice with all the hit and run techniques. If you want to get into a fight, stay in the fight and be a man. (that means no weapons, you bloody wussies) My bare hands will stay empty tonight. We'll show them what ecv kids are made of.

p/s: Motherfuckers don't understand if i die tonight, what if i die tonight?

Nostalgic & Impuissant

...that's the fucking way i felt when i see her pichas. The rush comes in as i am reminded of all the things we did, the false feelings and the 2kisses.

♥,
joji boy

Eikkz, I Love You So.

I was probably in a state of high yesterday. All those expensive stuff and a bottle of beer but that isn't what i'm gonna talk about. This post is more about the conversation i and my bestbuddy, Eikkz, had yesterday and all the less important things that happened yesterday.

Well, it seems to me that i've got a knack for small little girls who are older than me but very cute. And latest to the edition is Secretary. She's 21 this year and excitingly cute. She's entitled the name Secretary because she holds me back from spending in a 'sisterly' fashion. e.g, awk amik nih 5dollars, tkmu pakai duit awak, kan awak dah tkde duit. Its like, she gives me 'duit janjan'.

Wanyu even thought she was 17years old due to the baby-like features. Oh, by the way Wanyu is my personal tailor.

She gives me chills down my bones and i totally feel like a schoolboy with a boner. And yesterday was a blast going out with her even though i had no cash and it was just going out for a meal. She even volutarily offered to send me home which she did. hehs. Next, i send her off at the Eunos Primary Busstop. She stays in Yishun, mind you.

So now is the convo. part with Eikkz. We sat down at busket and talk. Duh. We were talking about Amang and Apin's new found relationship. Which brought him to the question "So how's goldilocks?" Then i told him about how she got back with the ex, which she used to cry and whined to me back then. How she didn't gave me an appropriate timespan of proving my sword. I didn't even forget that 5th Sept is her birthday.

As i and Eikkz communicate, we reach a point where he discovered how Secretary is fond of me. Throughout the whole time we were conversing, she was sending me numerous smses on my mobile. Need i mention that we were actually messaging each other since 8a.m. The only time we stopped messaging was when we were out together. And then Eikkz said something really sweet and moving for me. He said "He would be really happy for me if i finally land myself in a relationship" and how happier he would be if the girl is Secretary since he noticed the way i reacted at her every messages. Very tiresome actually doing the 'yeah thingy'. After he finish saying all those sweet things, i find myself at a lost of words, dumbfounded. I knew no words would sum up the feeling i get as he says all those things that would have made me a sleepwalker so all i can do is just throw my arms around him and hugged him for a moment.
Eikkz, you're the greatest.

BBR&R

In this post i'm going to present you a bbr&r poetry or phrase, taken from izzabelle's page.
here it is.

your door caught my fingers. and i love every atom of reality.

well, it is something that makes me stop to think, figure and understand the counters, stems, ascenders, descenders, strokes, serifs, x-heights and base lines of each letter in it. To put simpler, understand the anatomy of type used for that short bbr&r phrase. Such an abstract phrase deserves a recognition and mention in my blog.

p/s: i will strive and live the bbr&r way. K anyone?

A Covenant

My gut feeling is telling me all the wonderful things we are partaking currently won't last a lifetime. That our hearts won't always stay in the clouds, dadit. I guess i had to make you promise me, a day together upon reaching the terminus of our crime fighting days.(one week for the day to take place = allowance time to hopefully reach neutral zone)

We will have the day to ourselves. We shall go through all the sweet memories one last time. Though i am fully aware that to make the day set the Thames on fire is like squaring a circle, it is still under The Superhero Alliance Legislation that a day must be spent together for old time sakes. And the day will go accordingly.

1) The Beach Of Valhöll.
2) BK lunch at Sentosa.
3) Milkshake At Memories.
4) Theatre.
5) Last Dinner Note.
6) Hot Coco Magica.
7) Bus Stop Finale.

and with high hopes, i want this day to produce a great miracle.

he's so enthusiastic and she's so on.