Our Secret Vents

Perphaps you have a giant 2
curving in your chest.
Perphaps you have more than just 'I like you'
that I wish to bite and conquer
as soon as i get over my mess.

Shockingly, my lungs burst
inside this small chest of mine
on every messages you sent me in this universe
and every day i do not see you anymore.

You are disassembled in thoughts and heart,
uncertain of the left or right ventricle.
If things are just too hard,
why won't you grab the softer part
of me.

A part pulsing for something true.
A heart pulsing for you.

And i don't play to lose,
i make promises like i love you
born of the very first spark.
With that i'm ready to light up your face,
and tuck all my past beneath my skin.
You followed behind in it's place
and geared your journey to my brain cells.
I should've try to stop you
but i did not.

You insist on loving me
with every word you speak.
I insist you are like me
in every sense of unique.

Yet we unveil the new secret powers we both have.
Who's the best hero to bleed it all out?
Admit you need me and say it out loud,
and i'll admit i'm guilty of sleepless nights
with tears on my pillow.
The heart will gust and rupture
if you ever leave my airspace.

Shell Shock

Finally, my unfinished business is nearly complete. The outcome has been the opposite of what i expected. I wanted to detach(in other words, to end the collaboration) but there are enough reason for me to linger. My HD mind has awaken but still in its torpor daze.

I've yet to clean up all the other messes. Once i've made peace with the past, i will be able to progress towards the future.

The Twist:
The future i want, comes along with a few extra baggages. An impending incarceration and her dilemma or whatever i thought to be PMS. These extra baggages are more part of the mess i've yet to straighten out. Wish Me Luck!

What My Heart Is For

She puts the weights into my little heart.
She found a lonely sound.
She keeps on waiting for time out there.
Oh love, can you love me babe?
Love, is this loving babe?
Is time turning around?

I had seven faces,
thought I knew which one to wear.
But I'm sick of spending these lonely nights
training myself not to care.

All our history's like fire from a busted gun,
I know I've spent some time lying
and baby, my hearts been breaking.
If you can fix me up we'll go a long way.

If I get there early will it be the right time?
Our heaven is just waiting so put your hand into mine.
If I get too surly will you take that in stride ,
our boat is just there waiting so put your little hand in mine.

P/s: all i want is to be the very best for you
all i want is to do the very best for you

Drop Gear

"honey bee, we should be through with this,
your packaged eyes, your vicious lips
You could be young, but you're out of touch
If this loves been done, then what's your rush?"

I've been moving too fast, i'm going to slow down now. I need a little change with my pace. I want to bask in the moment. Whatever the moment is.

Screwed up?

...I know how you feel. I really do.

And i'm betting my balls that what i'm feeling is much more distressing. Visualize yourself having $4000plus and you probably need at least $3000 more by the 15th of this month(which is this coming friday, mind you.). And i seriously mean every alphabet of the word need 'cause your life depends on it. You wouldn't want to surrender to a bland existence, would you? All because of the fucking market english a bloody cunt has, not to mention his messy comprehension of the incident and i don't even want to start about his iq.(thanks eh "friend"!)

P/s: rolling with the punches.

♥ = be a hero, kill your ego [part 2]

"when i pull away,
grab me by the waist
and tell me
you'll never let me go"

even if i wanted to disappear, hold on to me please like you can't live without me. Twist my hand, chain my legs, hold me tight, do what you gotta do and show me you need me as much as i secretly need you.

P/s: I need a sense of security too.