Nowhere

the title says it all actually. i'm nowhere in life right now. and i don't even think i got a life. (k,i did..but not anymore) i got no motivation or what some of you might call the drive to pursue a dream. i don't really know what to do actually. (i know actually, what i meant is i don't know where to start) life is too pointless to live through. Can't i just sit one corner and sulk? cause i effing hate growing up. the need to earn your own allowance, the need to do things the so-called "right" way. i don't like being mature and i don't like understanding a lot of stuffs that never used to matter either. my life is a mess. (what's worst? i got no friend) yeah, i typed friend. the true meaning of it. translated into malay; sahabat. not kawan. you don't get me, i bet. "sahabat" and "kawan" are two different things. And once you start to mature like i do, you'll understand and realise all the crappy shits, "kawan" makes us do. right now i need to get ready for work. and i bledy hell need a driving force.